UNCAGED

Tightness like a clamped visor
the spiritless feeling  when these hands circle my throat
the illness that left me lying face-up
confronting my weakness, hating my strength
or these are just my ramblings
after that dose of Actifed.


I meant to open my mouth
as I wanted those sounds to come out
sweet in sour, screeching high, tastefully low.
the freeness to explore why my smile should go unchecked
the openness to drive down the bumpy road to my home with a gladdened heart
the unchecked beckon at the harmony behind music that will not let me go
the release of truth to flood my heart and ride open arms of trustful acceptance to a once betraying friend

unleash of my love that it should wash over every individual i touch
so that music would make me cry
just the way love would
and beauty for me, would lie in bold colors
unrestrained waves that break against the earth's shore
and me, at this end
worshipping the cold that would kill me....>>>

SHE IS

I might just be standing there
oblivious to her changing mood
but she catches me unawares
and my skin can hardly remember what it was feeling before her

she creeps up on me
making my skin go tight as she teases
making me shudder with prickly touches
she caresses my back, causes my eyes to widen

that's just before she releases her wrath upon my negligent mind
opening her mouth,and exhausting herself of all tension
pellets of heavy drops of tears fall upon my sensitized skin
so fast, i can hardly take cover
so cold, she decides my reaction
yet so welcoming that there's an almost orgasmic sigh falling from my lips

she's my blanket...for in her, i feel hugged
she's my shield...for in her, i am lost
she is the Rains!

I AM

Close your eyes...okay, maybe you shouldn't close your eyes
because you need to look within yourself...and find me!
for...I am, your name< your body and your heart
I am  that one whom you speak about
without distaste upon your lips
I am that one whose life you're living regardless of the sins you're commiting
I am here, whom you look at with a spark in your eye
I am here, the one whom you think of with a headache coming forth

I am the bubbling essence of your instability
I am the core restlessness of your vibrations
I am the persuasive state of your heart's decisions
I am your phobia, gripping your chest with inane fears, wetting your palms with nervousness, the film of sweat on your upper lip
I am your stubbornness, your hardheaded, petulant, resolutions.
I am your waywardness, your misinterpreted pervasiveness, the bane of all your misunderstandings...

I am your spectacular visionary,creating thoughts yet persecuting your actions
I am your sanctimonous pride, filling you with arrogant sureness, when in fact you live in the wrong!

I am relentless, i lack a leash, i am your fervor, your combustive boastiness, and your frail spirit.
I am...exactly who you are!!

WORDS

you take each letter, make it your own
you take each sound, the merged mouthiness that is only yours
you take each word, make it a sentence
forgetting almost immediately where it had sprung from
it becomes flawless, it becomes natural

what you'd say, how you'd say it...
and if i closed my eyes,
and listen to the sounds
the beauty of your words would flood me
and provoke my quickening fantasy
they would wash over me in waves

I then would realize that i gave your words  a thought
and then I would know that your words
can do nothing to please me!!

it's called 'THE L WORD'

What is it about the little things
that makes Love such a big deal?
i'm not speaking about such agape
i speak of the gaping, exascibating beauty of deeply intense feelings
nervousness, sweaty palms,  kisses on the forehead
The need to spend wakeful moments with YOU
yet lonely women are all i see
and when they go to bed alone,
they are comforted by music, comforted by a warm duvet

sometimes, i think that is how i might have end up
with memories, with left over warmth, and with such gaping sadness
one that could never match
the Love that i had initially felt
the way i had heard you say
"a ghra"
is the way i would hear you say
"au revoir" !!

FEBRUARY PAROLS...

THE month has not ended and yet i'm planning for the next nu month...
buh whoever plans on enjoying naughtiness... because i have that cheerleading skirt that i never threw away...*wink wink*
do not miss this!!

HOW THE DAYS GOETH

Lately, my emotions have been taking long walks on the beach
deciding that Life is a bed of swinging hands and yelling curses
but other wise, oyin has had that under control...(or maybe not)
songs are making me laugh hysterically...
and when i see people that i miss, I CRY...
so, how is life generally...?!
THIS new year, i have had to face what people term as LOVE
and then, what people decide is FATE
but at the deepest end of my darkness has lain Fear, fear of what lies ahead
fear of the unexpected...
even when i know that the unexpected might be pleasurable...
my life might be an amusement
but i do not know how to laugh!